Also,another thing I was thinking about. Does anyone have any idea what Madotsuki actually writes in her diary? And I was thinking maybe the first thing she wrote down in it was the instructions to remind herself on going through her quest in the dreams. I think she planned on having those dreams and committing suicide ahead of time and that the diary was simply there to keep her sane and focused on her goals.I for one wouldn't mind reading a well-written fanfiction filled with Madotsuki's diary entries.
Also,another thing I was thinking about. Does anyone have any idea what Madotsuki actually writes in her diary? And I was thinking maybe the first thing she wrote down in it was the instructions to remind herself on going through her quest in the dreams. I think she planned on having those dreams and committing suicide ahead of time and that the diary was simply there to keep her sane and focused on her goals.
I for one wouldn't mind reading a well-written fanfiction filled with Madotsuki's diary entries.
Sometimes I think she is not always writing new experiences in her diary, just keeping track of things she sees and has already seen.That is, a great deal of what she sees is probably recurring, being an environment that has been with her for a long time now. If she really wanted to stop seeing these things, she wouldn't be trying to remember them.But that's exactly what she's doing by going back to that diary. She's looking back on everything she's already seen and saying "yep, I saw that FACE and it stopped my dream again", as an example.For all we know, she could be opening the diary as a form of self-punishment, a masochistic cycle of recording trauma and then refreshing her memory of those past traumas in order to continue the dream. She could be spending more time reading her past entries than writing new ones, especially since her past entries have become her entire existence at the point you begin the game.
Sometimes I think she is not always writing new experiences in her diary, just keeping track of things she sees and has already seen.
That is, a great deal of what she sees is probably recurring, being an environment that has been with her for a long time now. If she really wanted to stop seeing these things, she wouldn't be trying to remember them.
But that's exactly what she's doing by going back to that diary. She's looking back on everything she's already seen and saying "yep, I saw that FACE and it stopped my dream again", as an example.
For all we know, she could be opening the diary as a form of self-punishment, a masochistic cycle of recording trauma and then refreshing her memory of those past traumas in order to continue the dream. She could be spending more time reading her past entries than writing new ones, especially since her past entries have become her entire existence at the point you begin the game.
Or, on the other hand, maybe her experiences aren't traumatic at all, and she constantly returns to the diary because she really, really likes it.In that case the only reason why the end happened the way that it did is because she was attempting to make the dream and all the experiences in her diary a permanent reality. Either way, she was committing herself either to her own personal Heaven or Hell, depending on if you think she enjoys the dream.
Or, on the other hand, maybe her experiences aren't traumatic at all, and she constantly returns to the diary because she really, really likes it.
In that case the only reason why the end happened the way that it did is because she was attempting to make the dream and all the experiences in her diary a permanent reality.
Either way, she was committing herself either to her own personal Heaven or Hell, depending on if you think she enjoys the dream.
I kind of like the thought of a masochistic Madotsuki, gives a bit of an out look on the dreams as if she were punishing herself for something.
I always got the impression that she drew stuff in her diary.