I think I might have had one last night. But I'm not sure.
As I was dreaming, it became apparent that what was going on was impossible, and couldn't be real - as I was climbing some bright orange staircase on the outside of my dad's house, which I know is not real. So I started thinking that I was dreaming. The more I thought it, the more I could start to feel myself laying in bed in real life, and sense that I was about to wake up. I told myself not to wake up, in my head, over and over again, and although I came close, I stayed asleep.
At this point, I was thinking "wait, does this mean I'm lucid dreaming?" So the first thing I did was try to test it. I remember calling an umbrella into existence in my hand and using it to float through the air to the ground. Then, I tried warping - I jumped in the air, and as I was jumping the world spun around, and when I landed I was back inside the house. I played with the lights by pointing at them and making them turn on and off. I found the room where I should have been sleeping right at that moment, but there was no me there.
The next thing I was about to try was sex, because let's be honest - if you could control your whole world, wouldn't you want to fuck some imaginary character you never could in real life? I remembered I had planned to try this in real life, if I ever became lucid, and now I was... I thought.
But before I could summon the character, I felt a sensation on my nose in real life - it was itching, badly, and it was like it tore through my subconscious, and the next thing I knew I was waking up with an itchy nose. Going from dream to reality was a fairly seamless transition though. There was no hole in my memories.
However, a few things raise suspicion. One is that it didn't feel real. Even when I was realizing I was dreaming and controlling everything, not all of my senses were activated - just sight, and my inner thoughts. I didn't hear, smell, taste, and I don't even think I was feeling anything. Despite it seeming like a lucid dream, it still had that very dreamlike, removed feeling, as if I was just watching it. I wrote in my original post that I had one dream with full sensation, and that is what I was thinking a lucid dream would be like. This one was not quite like that.
You know how, in an ordinary dream, your subconscious places fake memories and thoughts in place so that you don't think to question your reality? The things you do, even if you think they are your own free will, are actually still part of the script you're following, unbeknown to you? Well I'm wondering... perhaps I'm so obsessed with the idea of lucid dreaming that I actually had a dream ABOUT lucid dreaming, in which even my realization and manipulation of the world were scripted by my subconscious? Maybe I can't tell the difference because everything I was doing in the dream was what I'd probably do if I really became lucid...
...except for one. The umbrella thing. That's what makes me wonder about it - I do not feel like I'd ever think to pull a Mary Poppins as my first action while lucid dreaming. The lights and warping and sex make sense, but floating on an umbrella? I know me, and the first thing I'D do is just straight up FLY. I have wanted to fly as long as I've been alive, and if I was fully conscious in a dream, I swear that's the first thing I'd do is just soar into the air at mach speeds.
But I don't know... The fact that I did do SOMETHING involving being in the air still makes me wonder. Maybe I wasn't thinking right because I was too excited? But then, I don't remember feeling a whole lot of real genuine excitement.
Either way, this is a step forward. I'm recording it as a significant entry in my dream diary.