I apologize in advance for this lengthy post.
I had a strange dream today. The power went out early in the day because of the recent tropical storm in the area and I didn't really have much to do. I had about 7 hours of sleep, but I decided to sleep a little bit more to wait out the storm.
I recently purchased some vitamin b6 to help with dream lucidity and recall. I read online that 100-500mg was sufficient enough to affect dreams, so I took 300mg. I think that it worked.
I'd like to explain something before the dream, as I believe that it will help to explain it. My family has a history of mental illness on both sides, specifically schizophrenia. Recently I've been having hallucinations with some frequency and they made me fear that I was developing schizophrenia as well. It's possible the dream is based around my fear of developing schizophrenia myself.
I can't quite remember how my dream started, but I found my way into a friend's house, which was down the street from me for some reason. Instead of the house I remembered he had, it was more like a mansion. The house was quite strange, as it had a mix of characteristics from my house, his house, and other houses I've visited (such as furniture or rooms).
Anyway, I was in the mansion to find something that I also can't quite remember. Perhaps I was looking for this friend? It could be symbolic since I recently cut off connection with him, but he wasn't in the house. His parents were rather strange too. I can't quite remember what they looked like (like most people in my dreams, hell, I've never seen myself in a dream that I remember) but they acted differently than I would expect.
His mother showed me to the bathroom, probably to help clean clothes or something (dream logic). When she opened the door, the room was black and had jagged lines around and inside of it, like a hallucination I had after a nightmare - but worse. The mansion had plenty of lights on, but it didn't affect this room. She opened the washing machine but there was only blackness and it had no end. I covered my eyes as I saw this and I think she comforted me or something. I got the hell out of that dream but the situation didn't improve very much.
Needless to say, I can usually force myself out of a dream if it gets too bad out of instinct. I guess you could say I become lucid when shit hits the fan and force myself to open my eyes in real life but this was not one of those situations. I had a false awakening, but things didn't exactly feel right. I did the same reality checks as I've been doing recently, but I didn't see my hands. I felt that they were there, but I didn't see them - they were invisible. I became lucid again and tried to wake myself up again but I had another false awakening.
This time I felt the same, a certain feeling of uneasiness and separation from reality. I did another reality check to find that I had hands this time, but my fingers were dismembered at different areas. I woke the hell up at that point.
It was probably fairly late in the day by now, around 3 o'clock if I had to guess, and I was still kind of tired. I went back to bed and fell asleep fairly quickly.
I wanted to end on a lighter note, so I'll tell you the next dream I had. I actually really liked this dream since it was pretty lighthearted. I dreamed that I was playing as sabitsuki in some sort of city (or maybe I was sabitsuki). I noticed other sabitsuki avatars around me, doing various things. Once I noticed them, we all sort of got together. It was like the midget effect from yume nikki, a bunch of sabitsuki running to another area as if they were one. We stopped at one area and I guess we hung out or something. We were playing with different effects such as turning into a bird or holding a book (I think there were 20 effects or something, I can't quite remember). I think I used the plant effect since it was my favorite but all of the sabitsukis left me. I guess I scared them off or something since the other effects in my dream were lighthearted (strangely enough since .flow is not a very lighthearted game).
Anyway, I guess that's about it. I'll probably add more dreams or something later on if they're interesting / creepy as hell / to make this thread my dream log or something.
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