>>901
I really don't want to try killing him. I'm scared I'll hurt myself, or someone else. Plus if he's trying to protect me as >>907 suggests it would be backwards to try killing him.
>>907
If it is a brain tumor I almost don't want to find out. There may be a lot of ways to treat it but... that's a pretty scary prospect. How do I know it's not fatal?
Anyway, I guess I should update everyone. I've been having blackouts, but thanks to blocking my doors and windows I haven't been going too far. It's not too bad outside, but the cold feeling at my neck and back now gets more and more pervasive every time I feel it.
I had a nightmare. At least, I really hope it was a nightmare. I was floating around in a big ocean of ink or oil with only a little bit of light to see by. There wasn't a sky, or maybe there was but it just didn't have stars, or something. Anyway, there was this shifting over me, like some of the oil had come loose and started float up in the air. It just hung there until I drifted underneath it, and then everything stopped. The oil started to feel more like a bed. The floating bit though kept moving. It started to change. The light caught it and spread across its face. By then I was pretty much terrified. Well it turned into a face, and it looked familiar, but I didn't hear screaming or anything. I probably would have screamed but I was paralyzed. I didn't sleep for a while after waking up from that.
I've tried talking to Masada. Normally all I get are strains of very faint piano in response. Maybe that's how he talks. I managed to keep him in one place for more than a few minutes a couple of weeks back, but he fidgeted like crazy. He looked sort of guilty, kind of scared, especially when I told him about the nightmare. He ducked his head and curled his hands around the back of it like I was gonna hit him. I layed down after telling him about everything. He was staring at my computer when I looked up from the pillow. Do you guys think he knows I'm telling all this to you?